I have returned to Colorado after a month filled with exploration, experiences and adventure. I can't recall having as much fun or challenging a time since Basic Training 24 years ago. Odd as that may sound, it was the last time I threw all caution to the wind, left responsibility behind to board an airplane and consciously embark on a radically life changing adventure. It was not nearly as pleasurable an experience the first time around. Both necessary all the same.
June was paced with varying energy demands. First luxuriating with my earth medicine teacher, sister and friend as goddesses. Four days we spent relishing in ancient ways of how women share, nurture and grow with one another through the flowing bends of life. We moved suspended in the sky, through caves enveloped in darkness and bathed in herb infused waters. Days later, we stumbled upon a large butterfly puddle and shaded dappled flower patches.
On June 9th I had the honor of priestessing, Soulfire Trance Dance and Erotic Vocal Expression, with the Colorado Springs Red Tent offering the experience to open into succulent Shakti expression and form. Smiles all around. Women laughing. Our food offered in blessing between Sisters -- tastier, juicier and more scrumptious than the norm. We shared and expressed the enjoyment of consuming the nourishment of our food, noticeably enhanced. Thank you, Sisters, for fulfilling an ancient and once quiet dream.
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Within days, and too short a time really, my husband, Daniel, and I were off to Belize. A trip years in the making and one I committed to without expectation. Having tossed various travel plans around here and there, my heart would consistently wander back to this space. Two days after our plans were finalized I had a vision in Spirit induced trance. While the imagery was clear to me, Seeing opened far more questions than answers offered.
Exhausted from tidying up the strands of my mundane life, I threw a few things into my suitcase without concern.
This work requires space.
My first night in the jungle I bathed outside under a canopy of stars. Suspended above my head were blooming lush red and salmon pink flowers amidst branches and leaves of green. Feeling a palpable connection between elements and energies playing around and through me. The jungle air soothing this experience as I slipped into the frequency of this space and time on Earth. In that moment, I felt the entire lusciousness of bliss.
I tiptoed, swam and played in the Roaring Creek River, crossing 300' into the original Mayan entrance to the Actun Tunichil Muknal. An experience of entering the Earth Mother through her sacred Yoni to deep healing chambers; I was comforted in remembrance of my personal descent into darkness. A group of us crossed the Guatemalan border to visit the ancient Mayan citadel ruins of Tikal. We hiked a trail where Scarlet Macaws and Toucans fly sounding relaxed calls lifted on outstretched and effortlessly beating wings. Later in our journey we snorkeled the Belize Barrier Reef and discovered unexpected treasured time with local villagers learning indigenous ways of contemporary business, traditions, customs and various plant medicines as we rode bikes through the local village.
We've safely returned to Colorado and I am, likely to no one's surprise, processing. Resting. Learning. Discovering. Exploring.
Living an impassioned life with meaning,
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September 8th with the Colorado Springs Red Tent
Since starting my leave of absence in December 2016 I have continued studying, learning and growing in a way that is exponentially enriching my life and professional development. I sat meditating yesterday on the present, past and future of Nectar of Life Counseling thinking, in many ways, how I would write its eulogy. This entity I created in 2011 as I worked with Hummingbird Medicine. The idea that if one were to understand life's sorrows as a lesson along the great wheel one could cultivate joy and abundance without shame.
In the meditation I journeyed to the image of a shark crushing a steel cage. A hummingbird floating in the middle jolting gently with each impact from the shark. I imagined myself as the shark, then the hummingbird, the water and lastly the cage--allowing the experience of each to show me the way. I then saw a beautiful six pointed star mandala in vibrant blues, purples and touches of earthly green in the transitional waves of the pattern as it drew me in.
The word lingered and my mind recalled a cloaked figure ushered between the graceful wings of a swan carved boat. I hadn't recalled the 6 pointed arrows on the sail, the fullness of the moon and many other pieces of the imagery until I pulled it out from the Wildwood Tarot. I thought on the personal meaning this card offers me and realized being is about transitioning between moments and the exchanges we make with grace and ease. At once it created a sense of impermanence and consistency within me and I knew the answer was simply unknown. As such, Nectar of Life remains - in transition and I will not return to seeing clients at this time.
I am being called to deepen my skills in ancient healing traditions and Jungian analysis--one might say they are one in the same. I rejoice in the ability to hone my experience as a person, therapist and intuitive healer through the studies and teachings I am focusing my efforts on at this time. I cannot express the dream it is for me to understand the language of Jung, something I have longed for since I first learned of him in 1999. Or to be in the ecstatic experience of individuation which may very well be the delirious start of the Fool's Journey.
Thank you to all who were on the waitlist, signed up for the newsletter and most of all my former clients. Thank you to the men and women who have participated in the various groups and workshops I created. Thank you for the gifts of depth shared for me to understand the human experience in such a dynamic and multidimensional way. Thank you for trusting me with your truths, I am sincerely honored to have been your Witness briefly along your life's path.
So as to eliminate confusion, I have converted the Nectar of Life website to this Blog called, in the way I have been called by my Guides, of pearls and bone. I have no intention for the future of this site or Blog other than to honor my Soul expressions as a fiercely feminine warrior nurturing inner harmony with a dash of spice, peace and love along the way.
I started painting with a neighbor in 2012 but wouldn't find the grace offered in the confines of a circle until years and muses later. Mandalas create a container for the unconscious to emerge often revealing details, premonitions, and varying perspectives out of view at the time of conception and creation. They offer us a deeply personal way to discover aspects of the psyche's hidden realms driving our patterns and behaviors so we may find freedom from the conditioned chaotic state of today.
A mandala I began not too long ago. It's name and meaning continue to swirl in the many layers and journeys of my Soul as the paint lingers between the unconscious, brush, paper, and time.
of pearls and bone
by: Jessica Ruth Allen